not sure why this din’t post the first time…

I wrote this as part of a reply to another blog but wanted to share… tried posting this days ago but it never posted… not sure why…

to my ex:
I am not responsible for your faulty perceptions.
I am not responsible for you not understanding what I explained to you, 5 different ways and calmly
I am not responsible for your well-being
I am not responsible for cleaning up the messes of a 40+ year old
I am not responsible for your self-sabotage and self-victimization to gain fuel even as you attempt to make me your scapegoat
I am not responsible for the debts you accumulated while you prevented me from having any say financially or while you made sure I could not work/have a job
I am not responsible for your well-being or suicidal claims of “if I leave you your suicide will be my fault”, no… no it will not as I did not hold the pills and tipped the bottle and I did not hold the blade. I walked away, that is all. The rest is YOUR choice, YOUR decision… and I am well aware that it was not a true threat in any case as it was said only to try and force me to always remain under your thumb
I am not responsible for your games or for the times you got yourself fired in order to further prevent me getting my freedom back
I am in no way responsible for you ever thinking I would be your slave and forever subservient
I am not responsible for you thinking I was a tool to be used and then discarded or set aside until you felt I was needed for more use
I am not responsible for the things you claimed I was.
I AM responsible for ME, for getting my freedom and my life back.
I AM responsible for refusing to let you walk all over me
I AM responsible for standing up to you and calling you out on your BS
I AM responsible for demanding that you take responsibility for your own actions
I AM responsible for teaching our child not to take BS
I AM responsible for living my life, rebuilding it free of your poisonous, toxic influence
I AM NOT responsible for your criticism, your views, your twisted half-truths or any of your beliefs.
I AM DEFINITELY NOT responsible for your childish tantrums and the abuse you chose to inflict on us during our married years.
I am good enough
I am a good person
I am someone who works hard and loves deeply
I no longer doubt/am no longer blind to tat which I bring to the table in ANY relationship or situation
I am no longer subject to your whims, your tantrums, your guilt trips, your victimization of yourself, your scapegoating or your lies
You have no more power over me,
despite your best games
I am FREE

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15 Boundary Breakers

right on all of these

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15 BOUNDARY BREAKERS 

We never respect boundaries, do not regard them as applicable to us, whether those boundaries are accepted social conventions or boundaries enshrined in law, we have little or no regard for them. These rules, procedures, conventions and laws are for the little people, not titans such as us. We go where we want, when we want and do what we want. Driven by our astonishing sense of entitlement, absent empathy and innate superiority, we smash through barriers and boundaries every day. This is a total mind set which we adopt and the examples of this are legion. Here are fifteen instance of our boundary breaking behaviours.

  1. Anything of yours is automatically ours.
  2. You are an extension of us.
  3. We make you feel guilty if you say no to us.
  4. We make you believe that you are something that you are not.
  5. We ignore and/or deny your needs.
  6. We invade…

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you’re kidding me…

ugh…

they know I don’t have a car…

they know I have anxiety, PTSD, hearing issues…

they refer me to a job agency I would have to walk a good hour to get to AFTER taking a bus for a whole hour… by a busy highway… no sidewalks…

what is wrong with people?  Don’t they *get it*?

Since one of my biggest challenges since taking back my freedom has been boundaries and self-care, here’s one for the masses…

makes up for the smaller moments…

I categorically refuse to go to that one… find me one closer, one I can get to… yes I want a flippin job but NOT at THAT kind of cost to my well-being.

This is what happens often when you ask for help to try and get services…

I am NOT happy with the services I am supposed to be getting…

they take nothing in consideration about invisible wounds despite seeing the diagnosis…

You bet I am upset…

this feels like they think it’s a joke…

not at my expense thank you very much

edit: I am glad I stood up for myself and brought it up to them tactfully, pointing out the issues and asking why they would refer me to a place so difficult to get to and mentioning my horrible experience this brought back… They have offered me a solution to the issue and everything will be just fine. Phew.

A video everyone should see

this came up on my news feed and I thought it might be important to share this.  It can be triggering for those of us having gone through it… it’s very emotional, but worth every second of it.

If My Wounds Were Visible

I would like to thanks French Creek Films and all of the people appearing in the video.  I’ve brought up some of those things to my counselor, I think most of us have.  It’s nice that it has become a public video/voice for all to hear it. ❤

5 Narcissistic Myths

Good to know

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I always read views propounded about me and my kind, with considerable interest. I see many intelligent and well-reasoned observations about what we do and why we do it. Many carry considerable force. Other views are purely driven by the understandable anger and hurt that is engendered in people by us, although as I have repeatedly sought to explain, when one operates through emotion, poor decisions are made and the clear picture is not observed. I also come across comments which are made about us which are inaccurate. I am not referring to the disagreement one might have in terms of an ad hominem attack against us. Many people consider us to be arseholes and bastards. I understand that viewpoint, many of my kind would disagree, but it is not that kind of value judgement that makes its way to becoming a myth about us. There are other more…

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WNAAD – No Good Advice

so true…

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no-good-adviceToday is World Narcissistic Abuse Awareness Day (“WNAAD”) and in tandem with this awareness day, I have selected a series of articles which go to the issue of awareness, in terms of your own but more importantly to those who have yet to find insight and understanding. It is through YOU that you can direct people to this insight and understanding through YOUR sharing of my work. You have the capacity to assist others to seize the power. NOW is your opportunity to capitalise on this day’s impact by sharing, disseminating and spreading awareness.

Relationship advice. The internet is awash with it. Sites, blogs, question and answer sessions, videos on YouTube there is a plethora of advice about how to deal with the problems which arise in intimate relationships.

I decided recently to have a good look through many of these sites and gather together the common complaints which people…

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WNAAD – The Coterie

let’s be aware.. let’s learn and let’s teach

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Today is World Narcissistic Abuse Awareness Day (“WNAAD”) and in tandem with this awareness day, I have selected a series of articles which go to the issue of awareness, in terms of your own but more importantly to those who have yet to find insight and understanding. It is through YOU that you can direct people to this insight and understanding through YOUR sharing of my work. You have the capacity to assist others to seize the power. NOW is your opportunity to capitalise on this day’s impact by sharing, disseminating and spreading awareness.

A coterie is a group of people with shared interests. In this case, that shared interest is our kind. We have two groups of supporters; Lieutenants and the Coterie. The Lieutenants are our most loyal supporters, they are dedicated and are manipulated, usually on the premise of reward although sometimes with the prospect of punishment, to…

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